Tuesday, March 08, 2016

Follow the Flow - Journey of Surrender

3 months ago, husband came home with two complimentary air tickers to go to Japan. I was so excited as I never had enough of Japan.

Usually when husband invites me for trip, I would not be interested unless the trip comes with a purpose or it's a place of my interest. So, if the trip could evoke my interest, I would be the one plan for the whole itinerary.

There was no exception for this time too.

When I planned for itinerary, normally I would made sure every detail was set including what time to take what train and how much time to spend in each place. This time, I decided to follow the heart. I just prepared a few options, and asked husband to choose his preference first thing in the morning on each of our traveling day. I felt total freedom and I really enjoyed the trip. No pressure, not stressful on thinking of needed to chase after time and train.

I learned to surrender.

I learned that we can only try our best. As a droplet in the Ocean, we can only follow the flow and learn not to let situation affect our emotion. Keep our inner calmness and thing will fall into place.


Photo 01 - Title: "A man who is waiting"

I like the saying:
"I am on a road with no destination, I'm just driving with hope that I'll find a place that I like and I'll stay there. I'm not lost, I'm on my way."

We are all travelers of life. Why rush? Why only focus on destination? There is no real destination. There are just experiences and learning.


Photo 02 - Title: "Energy for the body"

Are we taking it as food? Or differentiating it as "Chicken"? When will we learn to have no judgment to every event?


Photo 03 - Title: "Witness"
李清照《武陵春。春晚》
风住尘香花已尽,日晚倦梳头。
物是人非事事休,欲语泪先流。
闻说双溪春尚好,也拟泛轻舟。
只恐双溪舴艋舟,载不动许多愁。

This wall has witnesses the change of time. If you zoom-in to the explanation, you will understand how precious the wall is. But what I am thinking is that, if reincarnation did exist, and if I still have my past life's memories, and if I was the owner of this castle, how would I feel to see that I can no longer stay inside here? How would I feel that people do not remember me? How would I feel that I could not enjoy my own possession anymore?

Life is a learning process.
Learn to let go.
Learn to have no attachment.
Learn to be selfless.


Photo 04 - Title: "Appreciation"

This is the famous Hiroshima Okonomiyaki.
It was cooked by a youngster who runs a mini family restaurant for the mother.
He appreciate every single detail of the food, even though it might be ordinary to others.
It is about how you appreciate life. Not so much of whether others see the value in you or not.


Photo 05 - Title: "Brain Yoga"

How many would want to evolve their brain often?
Most people preferred to stay within their comfort zone.
Will you want to let go what you learned yesterday, and experience life all over again today?


Photo 06 - Title: "Self-worth"

Do you define your value with the number on the weighing scale?
Do you set your value by using others' comment?
Have we learned from the story of "father and son sell a donkey"?


Photo 07 - Title: "Gorgeous"

Himeji Castle is gorgeous. But so what? What do we gain by building this castle?


Photo 08 - Title: "Get old together"

It's such a good fate to get old together with your love one. The wife looking at the husband quietly, and support everything he does behind. The husband brings the wife along in his journey and I am sure they do enjoy their time together.

Love everyone around you.


Photo 09 - Title: "Jail"

The grill fence up the castle from the attack of its enemy, but at the same time it jails itself from the scenic view outside.


Photo 10 - Title: "Unique"

You want to be unique? Stand in the water. Come out from your comfort zone!


Photo 11 - Title: "Innocent"

If only we can be innocent like a child. Forgot about yesterday, be joyful at present moment, and have no worry to tomorrow.


Photo 12 - Title: "Bonding"

Sometimes wordless moment is more precious than thousand words. Learn to be with silence. Learn to be with "loneliness", and then you will realise everyone and everything is with you.


Photo 13 - Title: "Culture"

I personally like this photo the most. It represents good manner. It represents the preservation of good culture.
If we do not have any manner or culture, then who are we?


Photo 14 - Title: "Courage"
无畏
No fear of high tide. No fear of cold water. No fear of wind.
I will stand strong and firm.


Photo 15 - Title: "Guarding"
守候
I hold on to my role in this life. Whether I am just a guard, or I am the emperor. It makes no different. Cause there is no purpose in life. It's all about learning.


Photo 16 - Title: "Appreciation"
感恩
Value your blessing. Each and everyday. Each and every moment. Each and every single thing you are enjoying NOW.


Photo 17 - Title: "Watching"
You think GOD is watching you?
Your conscience is watching you.
Your moral is watching you.
Your own perception is watching you!


Photo 18 - Title: "Far and between"

Far, but it makes a good picture. Sometimes it is good to see things from far.
Certain relationship is good to keep with a distance.


Photo 19 - Title: "Heaven"
Where is Heaven?
Do we always self-reflect?
I still fail to look inward before I judge outward.
Must remind myself: Buddha had never taught us to matter about others.
It's about how we refine our attitude daily.


Photo 20 - Title: "I bow to you"

It looks like the tree bow to the pagoda, stay humble in front of it.
How humble are we in front of ourselves?


Photo 21 - Title: "Different angle"

Husband taught me to take the pagoda from this angle.
Well, sometimes we must learn to see life from different angle. Learn to appreciate its beauty from other point of view.
Thank you, my dear.


Photo 22 - Title: "Low tide"

It's low tide.
It allows us to get close to the Otorii Gate.
We maybe having low tide in our life.
But so what? There is no right or wrong.
Low tide = Unhappiness??
Again, it's about how you view your life from another angle.
Every single moment in life is beautiful.
Even storm.


Photo 23: - Title: "Ray"

It's sunset.
The ray came from the same Sun.
But it gives us a different mood as compared to dawn.
Why is it so?
Same Sun, but different mood.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

My fashion guru

First and foremost, this is not an advertorial... you know I don't write my blog for money... :)

When I was young and at my 20's, I thought guys normally like feminine girl, and to me, "sexy" was the way to show my feminine.

Therefore, I liked to wear shorts, mini skirt, and one shoulder top.

I had a top, which one side was a short sleeve, and another side was just a strip. Looked a bit like "one-shoulder" top, but not really... I am not sure what it is called in fashion terms, but it looks something similar to the photography below.


I loved that top very much, caused it was really "sexy" to me... Especially if I went out with my boyfriend (only if I had one back then... ), I could pretend to feel cold and made my boyfriend hold my exposed and sexy arm to warm me... (haha.... it was just a romantic dream of a young girl, ok?! I never did it la... )

Until I met my husband...

I wore that top for our first date ... when I reached our meeting place, I saw him sitting comfortably on a couch of that cafe ... I was so excited to show my sexy-outfit-of-the-day, so, I pushed open the door, walked confidently and proudly towards him, hoping to see his jaw-drop-amazed-look ... manatau the first thing he said was: "Why your shirt look so unbalanced? You have not enough cloth to make the top?"

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I was speechless... My romantic bubble burst... LOL!

Another incident to be remembered:
My husband (that time was just boyfriend) called me one night, invited me to mamak shop for a drink as he just finished work. So, I waited at home... with just a t-shirt and shorts.... something like the girl in white t-shirt in the photo below.


I thought it was normal to dress up this way to go mamak .... casual mah, right?

Guess what?

The moment I jumped into his car, he asked: "Why you wear like this? This is to wear at home only!"

I was so confused as to what to wear... I really had no idea... In the end, I wore a black sleeveless dress, something like the below photograph.


and guess what?

My husband said: "Wah! We go mamak only! You dress up like this, I have to bring you to hotel for tea now!"

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Above my head got heavy cloud with think fog.... I was really clueless...

No, I am not bad mouthing my husband... He is really my fashion guru that has been my personal advisor :D

His degree was "visual communication"... I didn't know what was that about, I only know he uses his eyes to judge visual art in terms of balance of colour, shapes, and etc.

And to think back all these jokes, I realized how silly and shallow my fashion sense was.

Since then,
I read fashion magazine often (my husband bought for me... I didn't know how to appreciate magazine) ...

and also since then,
He has been the one buying all my clothes for me. He knew my size, even without me follow along, he can get the correct and perfect size for me.

and recently, he was so sweet to get me these:
(Photo source: http://www.victoriassecret.com/panties)

Now, this is called romantic for me *^^*

Thursday, March 06, 2014

All about cake

Since the beginning of this year, I became addicted to cake baking. During Chinese New Year, instead of making those traditional cookies like "kuih-kapit", green pea cookies, pineapple tarts ... etc, I made Sugee Cake as Chinese New Year "cookies" to give people.

After presenting the Sugee Cake to various people, only I learned that not many "new-age" people know how to appreciate this cake.

I presented it to a 20-ish young man, he asked me why was the cake so crunchy and not moist like the usual cake that he has been eating.

I presented it to another female friend, she didn't know what is "Sugee" cake. Her boyfriend is an Italian and good in cooking. He bit just one mouth, and he could tell it's "Sugee". From there he told me about how to judge a good Sugee Cake. I was so excited and happy that finally someone could tell me more about "Sugee" cake.

It has another name called "Semolina Butter Cake". It should be crunchy, because one of the ingredients is almond. You will be biting the almond with the aromatic butter and Sugee smell spreading in your mouth... Woah, heaven! And it should be bake without using any flour, just "sugee" powder.

That was exactly how I baked it.

Of course many other people love my Sugee Cake, especially children. It is appetizing to me and one will really get addicted to it after a few bites.


So far I knew two persons who are really crazy over Sugee Cake. One of them is my cousin-in-law..... She never expected me to bake her Sugee Cake for Chinese New Year this year. She ordered one from somebody else by paying RM300!!!

Another friend loves Sugee Cake very much and he used to eat the cake baked by his mother. Now that his mother has gone and he really missed the cake. He ordered the cake from somebody else too, and he threw away the whole cake after one bit. Until he tasted my Sugee Cake, he raised his thumb and said my Sugee Cake was the right and yummy one... (hehe... self-shiok for a while).

I must thank my mother-in-law for sharing her secret recipe with me, otherwise, I won't be able to retain the original recipe and bake such a yummy cake.

Anyway, what I am trying to say is, the traditional good quality cakes are fading away...

People started to eat fancy cakes: cake with lots of cream, baked by using flour, by using different fruits, and different chemical ingredients. It is good as we need to evolve all the time...... But good values should be retained too.

My knowledgeable hubby told me that during the 70's, Sugee Cake was being used as wedding cake. People would bake two to three tiers of Sugee Cake for the cake-cutting ceremony. After that it was being replaced with fruit cake... and now, it was just a dummy cake on the stage for "show" purpose.

My hubby told me about another traditional cake, which one can hardly see in the market - Zebra Cake:


It looks like marble cake, but they are two different types of cake, different way of baking too.

Personally I love Carrot Cake and Tiramisu Cake (only Su-Chan version and not any other version). After knowing my husband, I fell in love with Sugee Cake. I went to attend baking class to improve my baking skills. There are so many subtle skills which you can never find in any cook book.


I joined the baking class taught by a young lady, who really share all the skills with the students. I was happy with the class and learned a few types of cake, including moist chocolate cake, carrot cake, green tea cake ... and the most shocking one is red velvet cake.

Why I was shocked? Because it is just a colouring cake!! I was so disappointed... I first tasted it in my friend's Chinese New Year open house, and since then I had been admiring the cake... and now, it is just a cake that one putting red dye to the batter to me.


Last Saturday I went around to look for "purple" cake from various well-known cake shops, but couldn't get any. And if I were to order a custom-made version, I could only collect it on Wednesday... But I need the cake on Monday, for a terminally-ill patient's birthday.

In the end I baked it together with my husband, and decorated the cake with our own style.


You must be laughing at our decoration now, I myself find the design was so amateur too ... Well, we are on our way to improve our cake decoration skills... wait for us!

The patient loved the cake very much and had a really happy birthday celebration... This has motivated me so much until I have decided to sponsor and personally bake birthday cake for Hospis Malaysia's patients, cause I really enjoy doing it and find it meditative...

I found another old recipe from my mother-in-law's recipe book.... Have you heard of KEK NASIB BAIK?!!

I was laughing away with the name and I am going to bake and see how lucky is the cake... haha!

Do you have any cake history story to tell me? I like to hear them and has been begging my husband to tell me more about his cake experiences from small... ...

Monday, January 27, 2014

Scrapbook fever

I only came to know about "Scrapbook" recently! Such a shame for not knowing such an art at this age of mine *-.-* ... haha!

Sample from "Google"

My professor asked us to do a survey about a person. This person could be someone living in any country, having any religion, and practising any culture. She gave my group the research on a female who was living in Istanbul, Turkey. This girl came from a middle-upper class Orthodox Jewish family and the father was a jewelry businessman. We have to do a research on this person's country, religion, culture, lifestyle and any other details we wanted to add in from the day she was born until she passed away at the age of 80. Of course this person is just a fiction, but the facts about her culture, religion, lifestyle and country had to be non-fiction. The fun part was, we had to present to the class about this person in a "SCRAPBOOK" format!

Sample from "Google"

At first I only glanced through my seniors' work to get some ideas on how to do the layout. Later on, because of we needed to buy some materials like ribbons or symbols to decorate our pages, I went to Craft Heaven in 1Utama, and saw a scrapbook sample there. I was so amazed that scrapbook could be done in such a detail way!

Sample from "Google"

After my assignment was over, my mind still stuck to the idea of making "scrapbook"... And then the fever of making it kept attacking me. So, I planned to make my very own personal scrapbook for my husband as his birthday "card" ... Instead of an ordinary birthday card, I wanted to make something special for his special birthday. I compiled all the photos we took in 2013, and I'm going to make a scrapbook of what we did in 2013 to present to him ...

Sample from "Google"

I have so much ideas on how to decorate the pages, but to learn more, I "Google" and "Youtube" a lot on how to improve the design of a scrapbook, and got more shocked to know that it was a norm to the westerners to make scrapbook since young! Many of the westerners even have a "scrapbook room" in their house, just for them to make scrapbook!! They also have specialized stores just to sell scrapbook materials... Alamak, I'm so out-dated la!!

I have done two pages so far for my husband's "birthday-card" project, but still not very sure how to design the pages and find my pages quite bare as compared to the scrapbook sample on "Google" ... I hope I can improve my art-sense from doing this and improve my design to a better one... Well, I think it's "ok" that my designs are bare now, at least I started doing it and I believe practise make perfect. I find it a good therapy to focus my mind too. Maybe I could go into meditation while doing the art one day... haha! I will post my finished work here when I'm done, and hopefully it is nice enough to show to the world...

Sample from "Google"

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Body Work - to unleash and dissolve the memory of body cells

I have always been interested in improving my mind and my spiritual knowledge, especially in the recent years, I was almost going all out to attend seminars, courses and done lots of reading to understand more about human mind and the invisible force around us.

One of the thing amazed me was the memory of body cells. Thanks to my "Practitional Clinical Hypnotherapy" lecturer, I came to an understanding that body cells do keep memory of every incident that is meaningful to us. And all these memories are working at the unconscious level, affecting our conscious behaviours all the time.

Here's an interesting article tells more about the memory of body cells.

What I wanted to share, or make it as a record of my life journey here was my bodywork experience yesterday.

(Photo source: http://www.thumbtack.com/tn/nashville/massage/transformational-therapeutic-massage-bodywork)

I have a friend who does bodywork for people, that will trigger and unleash the memory of body cells, and thus achieve a therapeutic effect.

If you "Google" about bodywork, you will find lots of website explaining about what is bodywork. I think to the westerner, bodywork is equivalent to "massage". In the definition found on Google, bodywork has many types, including yoga, Reiki, QiGong, and all sorts of massage technique.

(Photo source: http://www.zazzle.co.nz/bodywork+businesscards)

I'm not sure whether there is a specific name to the bodywork that my friend offers. Let's just use the term "bodywork" for the specific meaning here, which is, a massage technique that can unleashes and dissolves the memory of body cells.

I decided to go for bodywork is because of I have been having the same nightmare throughout the years. I wanted to release the memory and turn it to a positive one.

It was an amazing and beautiful experience. Of course different person will have different experience. One of my friend tried the bodywork and she cried when certain part of the body was being pressed. She flashed back lots of memory of a certain incident when she felt the pain on that part of the body. She cried, and therefore the negative emotion was released.

(Photo source: http://www.relaxyoudeserveit.com/)

As for me, I didn't cry or have any memory flashback. Instead, I gained lots of insights on matters about life. I felt so light and like a new born baby after the massage, with zero negative emotion. The emotion that fills up my body cells is "happiness". I realized I could be a happy person easily. I don't need to hold on to any negative emotion.

I am glad that I knew someone who can do this type of bodywork. Thank you, Joyce! Really appreciate your effort.

Friday, November 01, 2013

Guessing

Too many guessing in this world...

A: "I guess that he is angry at me, because he never add me in his Facebook!"
(In fact, the person might be too busy to even look at his own Facebook.)



B: "I guess my girlfriend is angry at me, cause she never reply my message..."
(In fact, the girlfriend has gone to bed ... )



C: "He should have listen to my advice! Next time I don't want to bother about him anymore!"
(Can't one has their own decision, even though the person seek for your opinion, he can choose not to listen, right? And the opinion giver shouldn't feel often right?)

And all the guessing are towards the negative thought.

We should observe one's intention, and not only see his action...

Let's make the world a POSITIVE place ... Only if we are positive towards our thought, we can make positive miracle happen on us.


Monday, July 01, 2013

Who Am I?

I have a student who was so "good" in procrastination, that he scored "good" results in his mid-year exam. Trial exam was just around the corner, and he was still taking his sweet time without starting his revision yet.

I asked him to try one session of hypnotherapy with me, so that he could get rid of his "procrastination". You know what he answered? "I do not want to be hypnotised, because it would not be 'me' anymore. I will be programmed to be hardworking. I want to be myself."

Haha... I asked him back: "Which part of you is really originally from yourself?"


So many external factors that moulded us since we were small. Parents told us what to do. Kindergarten teachers taught us how to talk. Primary teachers fed us with lots of information. Secondary school teachers fixed our brain to be more and more logical in thinking. Tertiary education made us even better in reasoning.

Which part of you is really originally from yourself?

It's just different environmental factors, spiritual influences, and karma ripening that moulded us until who we are today.

We have all the seeds in our mind. Which one will grow well in the end; which one grow half-way and overkill; which one still need to be watered ... All has it's own karma.

But it doesn't means that we are just waiting to be controlled by our "fate", or all external factors.

If only we can be conscious of all our doing. We will be able to change our fate.