Thursday, July 30, 2009

My bucket list

I had been hearing so many people passed away recently.
All are like sudden death.

My friend's wife was walking around in her home when she fell down.
And just like that, she is gone.
My friend reached home at 12 midnight after work, then only found out that the wife fell down and died... No one was at home to help her, or rescue her.

Another friend's sister, she was pregnant, and had a loving husband.
Every morning they will brush teeth together, then the wife will change to working dress and sit at the living room sofa to wait for the husband to get ready and fetch her to work.
One fine morning, they as usual, brush teeth together, and then the wife sat on the sofa and waited for the husband....
And, she just gone like that ... no reason, no sickness.... pregnant 8 months.
The husband cried like mad.

I was telling my student about all these deaths.
I felt so down.
Then my student was trying to cheer me.
Asked me to write down my own bucket list too...
Not that I'm dying, but just write something for me to look forward to.


I was holding my pen, and thinking for so long...

What do I want to achieve in this life?


I suddenly realised that I've no desire, nothing for me to look for...
I've no more regret in life, and if I were to go now, I'm prepared.
I suddenly lost my reason of living.


To have big house in my life? That's not really what I wanted, and desire for.


Have lots of children and see them grown up?
No... No... No...
That doesn't bring any meaning to me.


Have lots of saving?
If I don't use the money, it's not mine too...
So, not also...


I really was thinking so hard, and so long...

Finally I wrote one line in my bucket list...

I wish I can be a nurse, and have the chance to take care of dying patient


That's all I wish...

What's your bucket list then?

18 comments:

tong said...

waa teacher, so charitable...

TZ said...

teach and nurse ... i salute.

Medie007 said...

that's a very noble wish. You can always sign up in the nursing school. :D

my bucket list... mmm...

Jerry said...

Erm, I'm like you, nothing to desire, nothing to look forward to... But I'm just trying to live my day happily, making others happy while trying to find the purpose in life... Just to hope that one day, I'll find mine....

Gratitude said...

Death is a certainty.

Unlike Bodhisattvas, we only have a pair of hands and other limited resources. I think you subtle impart of dhamma to your students is already very good.

Look forward to a little more charity whenever possible. You have a strong reason for living too ..... your loving Twilight. I think you have achieved far more than many of us cld dare to dream of. ^_^

Tekkaus said...

Ouh...my God! I would have cried like mad too. =(

A Common Singaporean said...

Wow! That is really noble.

I am not that noble I guess. I would used all my savings, borrow from bank, get a BMW 3 series hard top convertable, party like mad, live life to the fullest, go spa, resorts, paris, rome, then when i am dying, pass a wish to donate all my worldly belongings to charity. But at least I enjoy like king first b4 i die!!!

eugene said...

Really dont know what to say about death,just came back from business visit,a good friend told me her mom night on the spot from an accident just like week.

life is cool but sometimes it can be short,doestn matter when it ends,just live the day and make ourselves proud and our loved ones proud........

Superman said...

You must be a very kind person...But most important thing, enjoy your life!

Ju Ann said...

yes tt's a very noble wish!

I got a lot of things I want to achieve before I am ready to say good bye to life... but if I had to put it down into a list, I think that will take away quite a fair bit of the excitement in it all....

p.s. I link u k!

Bengbeng said...

yr friend's passing away, it is so tragic

Elly with the half said...

wow..

Mam'selle Kate said...

Wow. So noble. But not to the extent of putting your happiness away for the sake of others. It's not worth it. Helping and giving is good. Just make sure you still have your share. My bucket list? Make God proud of me and live in worship unto Him. But not until the extent of celebacy. Lolx. God bless.

Uncle Lee said...

Our death is not an end if we can live on in our children and the younger generation.
For they are us, our bodies are only wilted leaves on the tree of life.

Have a nice Sunday MiChi, Lee.

[SK] said...

our Mother MiChi to-be.. salute you!! :)

Leu said...

nurse? cool... :) can help those who need our help...

MiChi said...

tong:
just doing my part ... and wanted to make full use of my life.

TZ:
haha...so fickle-minded of me huh?

Medie007:
nursing school? 3 years to get diploma in nursing :(

Jerry:
heh, good for you! maybe you can be a monk liao...

Gratitude:
haha....he is the only reason for me to have heavy heart to die.

Tekkaus:
real sad...

A Common Singaporean:
hahaha.... you really know how to enjoy life...!

eugene:
:) yes... that's true

Superman:
heh heh... I'm enjoying my life

Ju Ann:
:) thanks for adding me...

Bengbeng:
... ... tears...

Elly with the half:
woah

Mam'selle kate:
What is the definition of happiness? self-enjoyment? that's small happiness and don't last long ...

Uncle Lee:
haha... good say

SK:
mother to-be? when? I'm not that good only le... I still got temper, sigh...!

Leu:
you want to join me? be male nurse... :) good too

Johnny Ong said...

really tragic to hear of those sad news of yr friends